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The Truth About the Tucson Gem Show | A Journal Post

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~ Sunburnt and High on Life ~

This past February I went to the Tucson Gem Show for the first time ever in my life.

And it was great.

It was beyond great. It was one of the best things I’ve done thus far in my life.

I learned a lot, connected with many in new and interesting ways, I began my journey as a buyer and seller of minerals. I felt my soul melt and come back alive again. I felt at home and understood in a way that I feel rarely understood where I am not.

And its not that I am not surrounded by amazing people. I am. All the time.

This was something different. For a week and a half I was on a high. I was doing all the things that I love and none of the things I dread doing in the sunny desert of Arizona. The weather lifted my moods much in the same way cloudy Vancouver can lower them. I found myself going fast with people I love whom I felt so at home with.

Landing in Vancouver afterwards was a shock to my system. I was exhausted, sun tanned and quite happily sick. Mission accomplished. Sitting on the skytrain to the current housesit I felt a blast of energy go through my body. I didn’t know what it was, and I still don’t know what it was, but when it hit me I couldn’t stop crying.

Homesickness struck me. Not for my Blood Family or where I grew up. I wasn’t craving the Islands, or the friends I have there, in Winnipeg, or in other areas of Canada. I was craving the family I felt I had left in the States, at the Gem Show. I was craving the sense of home I had this previous summer in San Francisco, the first city I have fallen in love with and written love letters to and all the people in that area I felt so at home with.

I realized with a force where my home is – an intention I had set almost one year ago.

Then I couldn’t stop crying for a good nine days.

It was as if each session of tears let something fall away. For those nine days my body was racked with emotional turmoil of mainly fear. The fear showed up in different ways with many different stories and versions of the fears that came up for me. I witnessed myself and creating stress as I dealt with finding a new place to live, receiving the minerals from the States, and money.

My emotions on a daily basis would swing within hours from regret to anger to low self-esteem to grief to straight up fear. Stories went on in my head as I contracted from the world, and decided to do what I needed to do and nothing more than that until my emotions stopped spinning me around in whatever transition or transformation this was.

As I came out of the experience I began to feel my cheery self coming a live again and able to be more fully present. I have slowly, day by day, felt much more able to handle the world and physicality again. I feel like I can be okay with the unknown – and there are so many unknowns and probabilities. I feel like I can be okay with the waxing and waning of life again. I feel like I can stand strong on my feet again.

Words haunt me from the mouths of others as I exit this process, whatever that was: You are beautiful. You are a Goddess. You are intimidating. You are powerful.

I practice now to feel my power, feel my aura, feel my impact on others. The better I can feel it the more awareness and consciousness I can bring to my interactions with others. I’ve only glimpsed my power twice in my life, stories for another day, and now I want to humbly know it so I can use it better to serve each person I encounter in my life.

My own words haunt me, the words I said to perhaps one or two good friends of mine: “I feel like when I come back from Tucson my whole life is going to be at a different frequency. Everything is going to shift and change.”

And it is. Fast. I witness the changes within myself, a gentle smile on my face in the most mundane moments of life, and feel so blessed to be where I am doing what I am.

There are many factors to the changes I see in me and one of them is the Kundalini Yoga course I’ve been doing since October. It has truly been transformational. I am honored and humble at the power of this technology, this world, the power of being a soul in a human being, and with just… everything in this moment and the last few days. I find myself spending more and more moments in that space – shifting, twirling, moving between human and soul and the many faces of each. <3

The 4 Most Intriguing Crystals of Summer 2013 Part 1

This past summer I went on a journey, a pilgrimage if you will. It wasn’t planned on my part. I simply dreamt that it was time for me to go travel, and when I woke up the Universe had already constructed a plan to get me travelling and out the door. I was gifted the chance to meet many magical crystal beings and fewer but equally as magical crystal keepers throughout my travels.

I’d like to share with the four most intriguing minerals I came across this summer, a few of which I have the privilege and joy of working with, in no particular order.

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The Andara I’ve been working with. It has an angels wing on the other side. 🙂

Woah! Can I just say, wow! The first pieces of Anadara I encountered in the Crystal Room in Mt. Shasta. If your unfamiliar with the Crystal Room it is actually an eight room crystal store tucked around the corner from the main drag of the town of Mt. Shasta. I cried the first time I went in because of the overwhelming love inside the store, which tells me the crystals are well loved and taken care of.

I wandered all the way to the last room in the shop and on the floor were sitting two huge chunks of aqua-blue Andara. I had never seen anything like it before. They were just like glass, but different. I touched one and tuned into it, someone playing a crystal bowl in the background.

Instantly I was transported underwater to Atlantis. It opened up its doors and I saw all sorts of mystical fish and sealife including mermaids. Entering cave up to dry land we stopped. I began to witness a scene. I could feel myself being pulled in very deep and I didn’t have time to sit at the moment so I pulled myself out of it. I queried the shop workers, but they didn’t know too much about it except for the name of the crystal.

I was fascinated since that day. I saw various pieces, and noted that the prices were rising over the summer to $183 for a fairly small chunk at one of the mineral stores in Shasta I was frequently – way over priced, over double what it is at cost.

I also came across arguments: are they real? What are they? How do you tell real ones from glass?

If you can’t feel the difference it would be a challenge I would guess. I was in Ashland, Oregon going for a massage when I came across a woman who was selling them for her friend. She hadn’t sold very many of them. For the same sized chunk as mentioned above, it was only $40. It was all I had in my wallet but I knew one was coming home with me.

Mine is rose pink, and I’d love to work with the aqua blue. I was also able to work with large smokey andaras over the summer. I channelled that they each align colour-wise with the chakra system, expanding, balancing and anchoring in higher levels of consciousness. They work fast and are potent for the people working with them. They are gifted to us at this time to help us raise consciousness to the true level of where we are supposed to be.

Research states that they come from only one place in the world, found on Nellie’s Land. They are composed of prima matra and are not volcanic glass even though they look like glass. They are currently gaining notoriety in the metaphysical world as fast consciousness expanders, powerful healing tools, and gateways to other realms.

I’ve just begun working with mine in deep meditation, and wow. It’s amazing. I would love to work with more of different colours. Each Andara is connected to an Ascended Master aligned to the colour of the Sacred Flames.

You can find more info about Andaras at this links:

Nellie’s Website
Blog about Andaras
Channel about Andaras
Sciencey View

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The Azeztulite I’ve been working with. The white wand from Mt. Shasta and two pieces from a client.

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I collected a few pieces over the summer: white, rose and gold. The rose and gold were chosen by a client of mine who knew I was looking for this mineral due to its properties as an ascension mineral. It, too, came to the planet at this time to help with the consciousness and to help us grow faster. It is also a questionable mineral, many people wondering how to tell the difference between quartz and azeztulite.

I was in Shasta when I had a dream that told me to go to Soul Connections, a crystal store in Shasta. I woke up and told my friend that we have to go to Soul Connections today. We walked in and I was guided to go to the azeztulite section which I had been watching all summer long for a piece that called to me and I could afford. Sitting on the top of the pile was my piece, the most beautiful piece of azeztulite I had seen them carry all summer (as shown in the picture). My friend bought the crystal for me that was out of my price range, thankfully, and I’ve enjoyed it every since.

The minerals contain a soft frequency that unfold into transcendence and uplift. It elevates one to the joy and happiness that are our birthrights, allowing us to release all that doesn’t serve. Each one works on a ray with a specific being, similar to the Andaras. If you are familiar with the Sacred Flames you can match both the Andaras and Azeztulites to the various flames I feel. Azeztulite work in a more well round way instead of having a laser-like focus. They are just generally more soft and feel like a loving grandmother to  me.

In meditations they have proven to be potent. They connect to higher realms with a softness and overflowing love that just holds a person in a place of peace and joy, allowing the world around them to go by. It’s not a passive allowance, but a surrender to the flow, a lack of attachment. Its time to just be. 

If you have the opportunity to work with these guys, do it. I’m still exploring their gifts. The white one came to me to be used on others, combining amazingly well with the ametrine wand I often use. Together, used on the hands, they bring others to other dimensions and provide an experience of synaesthesia. If you can sit with a piece of ametrine and a piece of azeztulite I highly recommend it. 

If you want to read more about this mineral look it up in The Book of Stones: Who They Are & What They Teach. They have quite an extensive section on it, the best place to read about it actually.

Apparently I have a lot to say about these minerals! Stayed tuned for Part Two next week! You will not be disappointed!

Networking, Fear of Success, True Colours, and Muffins

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Ah, this week was a very busy week for me! It was filled with a personal learning curve, which definitely has effects my business.

One of my main concerns this week was muffin making! I have made an agreement to trade a gluten free sugar free and vegan muffin recipe for an Akashic Record consultation where I plan to get my business name from as I’m currently operating under none. After finding out that Victoria is the “City of Roses” my old name of Rose Tree Healing would get lost in all the rosey businesses. And it has no oomph to it. So lets see what Spirit has in store!

Thursday night I attended a YES mixer (Young Entrepreneur Society) with another participant in the Youth Means Business program and Mr. Business Coach. I really did not enjoy it, however I do not like crowds of people especially being in a crowd of people in a small confined space. I also dislike people I don’t know touching me which happened often, as it does in crowds, as people move around from one point to another. This mixer definitely took me out of my comfort zone. The other participant I went with seemed quite comfortable and the Mixer seemed profitable for him.

On Sunday, I had requested a friend of mine do some work on me. We focused on my Abundance issues and gleaning clarity on the underlying blockages to abundance. The session definitely met it’s goals of clarity around abundance.  Among a few issues that came up one really stood out to me, which I focused on this week: Fear of success.

At one point in time I had become aware of this fear within my consciousness but I had never done anything with it. It makes sense that it would be a contributing factor to the blockage of abundance, especially financially, that I have felt in my life.  I see that it would contribute to the habits of self-sabotage and procrastination. There are probably other habits or patterns that I am unaware of as well.

After the session and dragging my feet for Monday and Tuesday I said to myself  “Okay, you have to stop this Serafina. You have to deal with your fear and you know how to do it!” So, with much hesitation and crying (It was an emotional moment to possibly loose a long-time buddy, even if it’s for my own good!) I sat down and meditated on my fear.

I pictured him in front of me and asked him what lessons he had to teach me. And then I removed him from my life, and filled that area with white light. This was repeated until he said “You can only deal with me so much in this way, the rest must be dealt with in day to day life… Take care of yourself.”

I would like to share with you some of what he “said”:

“You can love yourself. It is a simple choice…. Self-love will make you radiate… Acknowledge that you are beautiful in the mirror everyday… Don’t be scared to give of yourself, for this is how you will make your biggest contributions to mankind, to humanity.”

On Wednesday I went to the True Colours Personality Workshop that Youth Means Business put on for program participants and I finally got to meet other women in the program! I also learned about the True Colours, which I think are a very simple and fun way to think about people. I’m blue. And my secondary colour is orange. What are you? The only free online quiz I could find for you is here.

My week was emotional. I felt a lot of things moving and shifting. Things that have been held in my body are releasing, and I feel some patterns and ways of thinking are being lifted. It is good!

Also, got a bike! And a helmet! Very excited! Went on my first bike ride and its perfect for my plan to get me into shape! A giant hill almost killed me! Lol. MUAHAHAHAHAA!

Have a great week!  🙂