Monthly Archives: February 2012

Networking, Fear of Success, True Colours, and Muffins

Banana Nut Muffin

Ah, this week was a very busy week for me! It was filled with a personal learning curve, which definitely has effects my business.

One of my main concerns this week was muffin making! I have made an agreement to trade a gluten free sugar free and vegan muffin recipe for an Akashic Record consultation where I plan to get my business name from as I’m currently operating under none. After finding out that Victoria is the “City of Roses” my old name of Rose Tree Healing would get lost in all the rosey businesses. And it has no oomph to it. So lets see what Spirit has in store!

Thursday night I attended a YES mixer (Young Entrepreneur Society) with another participant in the Youth Means Business program and Mr. Business Coach. I really did not enjoy it, however I do not like crowds of people especially being in a crowd of people in a small confined space. I also dislike people I don’t know touching me which happened often, as it does in crowds, as people move around from one point to another. This mixer definitely took me out of my comfort zone. The other participant I went with seemed quite comfortable and the Mixer seemed profitable for him.

On Sunday, I had requested a friend of mine do some work on me. We focused on my Abundance issues and gleaning clarity on the underlying blockages to abundance. The session definitely met it’s goals of clarity around abundance.  Among a few issues that came up one really stood out to me, which I focused on this week: Fear of success.

At one point in time I had become aware of this fear within my consciousness but I had never done anything with it. It makes sense that it would be a contributing factor to the blockage of abundance, especially financially, that I have felt in my life.  I see that it would contribute to the habits of self-sabotage and procrastination. There are probably other habits or patterns that I am unaware of as well.

After the session and dragging my feet for Monday and Tuesday I said to myself  “Okay, you have to stop this Serafina. You have to deal with your fear and you know how to do it!” So, with much hesitation and crying (It was an emotional moment to possibly loose a long-time buddy, even if it’s for my own good!) I sat down and meditated on my fear.

I pictured him in front of me and asked him what lessons he had to teach me. And then I removed him from my life, and filled that area with white light. This was repeated until he said “You can only deal with me so much in this way, the rest must be dealt with in day to day life… Take care of yourself.”

I would like to share with you some of what he “said”:

“You can love yourself. It is a simple choice…. Self-love will make you radiate… Acknowledge that you are beautiful in the mirror everyday… Don’t be scared to give of yourself, for this is how you will make your biggest contributions to mankind, to humanity.”

On Wednesday I went to the True Colours Personality Workshop that Youth Means Business put on for program participants and I finally got to meet other women in the program! I also learned about the True Colours, which I think are a very simple and fun way to think about people. I’m blue. And my secondary colour is orange. What are you? The only free online quiz I could find for you is here.

My week was emotional. I felt a lot of things moving and shifting. Things that have been held in my body are releasing, and I feel some patterns and ways of thinking are being lifted. It is good!

Also, got a bike! And a helmet! Very excited! Went on my first bike ride and its perfect for my plan to get me into shape! A giant hill almost killed me! Lol. MUAHAHAHAHAA!

Have a great week!  🙂

Full Moon, Clothing Swap & Life Lessons

Off to the Sunday Market I went, and there I met some amazing people. While there, since it was slow, I had plenty of time to think, reflect and have intriguing conversations. One woman I now call my Speech Doctor because she has a beautiful way of speaking and expressing herself. This led to my reflection on some lessons I would like to share with you. 🙂

  1. Words are extremely important. It’s best and improves life to use positive words as much as possible. The Speech Doctor gave me my first lesson: Avoid/notice don’t and won’t.
  2. Names are also extremely important. Remember, and use them. I’ve always been bad at recalling names, at one point I completely stopped using names unless absolutely necessary for fear of using the wrong name (which I often did). To counter my memory failure I’ve begun to visualize people with their names printed beneath their picture.
  3. I am what I complain about. This amazes me. Just amazes me.
  4. Its getting quite easy for me to identify abuse, codependency, boundary issues as well as passive aggressive behaviours now that I have become more knowledgeable and aware. I still have much to learn, however I feel like this awareness shows that some progress has been made on my own journey to heal myself, as they are all issues that I’ve been working with.

On Monday Mr. Business Counselor stated, much to my excitment that I’m almost done three parts of my business plan out of about eleven parts! Some of the pieces I’ve been working on for a few weeks I’ll finally get to retire! YES!

The full moon came around, and with it the opportunity to go to a Full Moon women only clothing swap/get together. A girl I had met on Cortes also came out that day and ended up spending the night here because she joined myself and Lori on our adventure to the clothing swap.

I had made about two dozen chocolate chip cookies that are gluten free vegan and sugar free, and brought some old clothes. Lori brought old clothes as well. When we arrived there were about ten or twelve woman encircling a huge pile of clothes. We dumped our clothes on top and joined the swap, looking at pieces.

I had some AMAZING finds, including purple pants, and yellow high heels. It pretty much made my night when I got home to find that the pair of heels I had thought to be beige were yellow. The realization actually caused me to dance on the spot.

The night was wonderful and after conversation and creating connections with a few of the many women who were there that night I left with a smile on my face, and two cookies on my plate. I will definitely be attending another clothing swap night, and recommend it to you if you encounter one!

Have a great day ladies and gentlemen!

P.S.

I learned recently that Victoria is the land of roses! There are so many here that they are sometimes considered weeds. Well, this I find amazing, as roses are one of my favourite flowers ever. I even tried to grow them one year, but Manitoba winters kill a lot of things. So this new was very exciting to me, and then when I encountered a blooming rosebush on my way home one day I absolutely had to take pictures!

Avocados, Tea, Crystals and Business

Fruit and KettleSunny days have arrived in Victoria!

Along with this my body has decided to lean heavily on the potato and avocado and mango fare. Avocados calm my stomach when it hurts I’ve discovered and I never knew mangoes went on sale this time of the year! Seriously! This is all I’ve been eating for the past two weeks. And lots of tea.

Its been highly difficult for me to stay grounded this past week as well. It’s never been my strong suit to be grounded but I think it might be all the meditations with crystals…

Life:

I’ve been practising a lot with the gemstones that I own. One of the things I would like to accomplish is personally connecting with each stone that I own to see what they bring to my life, and what else they would like to offer. For some reason, I have never really worked with stones in this aspect as I’ve always intuitively followed my guidance and it always matched what they wanted. Now I’m having conversations with the stones.

This week the stone of note is a mystery stone that has been travelling with me since I left Winterpeg! It is a small round purple stone, that most people I brought it to for identification thought was glass. With a suggestion from one of my friends, I place the stone with Angel Quartz, and boy, did he ever start talking loud and clear! He identifies himself as Purple Cat’s Eye.

Business:

This week I was working hard at my business, doing as much work as I could with my business plan for the Youth Means Business program. I was mainly focused on my product list. It was about Thursday that I began feeling overwhelmed at the actual amount of work it requires to complete a business plan. Even though I feel like I’ve done a lot, there still seems to be so much left to do.

Today I choose to relax. This morning I met with the business mentor and a few other participants to have a round-table discussion about our businesses and meet each other. I stated the (what I believe to be) seed, of my feeling of overwhelmed: the sheer variety of gem elixirs I can make!

I’m at seven pages…

Using the wise words of wisdom from Mr. Business Mentor, my product list will be done quite soon, even with the realization that I may have focused on the “wrong” things for what I need right now.

This week too, I’m going to start scoping locations to practice Reiki and Card Readings out of, so if you know of any possibilities that I may be interested in investigating, give me a shout!

And if your out and about this Sunday in Downtown Victoria, I’ll be working at the Dream Collective’s Market, located at the Well between 12 and 5 PM. Yay!